Milomi's world

I was a long way from everything
I was at the edge of the sea
At the verge of crossing the desert
But fear drew me back to where I came from
And fear forced me to stay there

I writhed and raged at fear
But he wouldn’t let me go
He wouldn’t let me jump off a cliff
And fly for a moment
Before I fell

He stopped me from diving into the depths
Of the ocean
And losing myself there
As I would watch the shark come toward me
As I would see darkness blind me

I was pulled back by fear
When I edged closer to the monster in me
And I was back to who I was
Still struggling
Between my minds

But I never knew it would be tough
To do something
And I thought I was brave
But fear made me think
That I was

And so every time
I see fear hovering in front of me
I learnt to step back
And let him do his thing
But I don’t know if I still should

So one day
I rose in defiance
And I took the leap
And I got hurt badly
But somewhere amidst the pain, I sensed triumph

And I think I knew why.

Written by
Milomi.

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